The leap taken into wild wideawakeness is akin to the evolutionary leap from linguistic potential to language development. The bridges leading back to ignorance are spontaneously destroyed: you know what you know, and it cannot be denied.
I spent so many years in “please-like-me” mode;
aware of it, yet powerless to change it
in spite of desperately wanting to.
The program’s still there, still kicks in
but there’s no wanting to change it,
or accept it, or love it,
or do The Work on it.
Relaxing as what-is opens the heart
and this is perhaps the greatest wonder:
that everything I hoped and imagined
would be erased by this savage wisdom
is embraced by it without condition or judgment
and simply ceases to be a problem.