One of my father’s nick-names for me was ‘Tuppence.’ Perhaps it was because I was always eager to offer my “tuppence-worth” (i.e., the state-of-the-world according to my all-knowing self), and irritatingly persistent with my questions – “But why?” “Who says so?” When he was really mad at me he’d say, “For two pence I’d give you the hiding of your life!” I was always relieved no one came along with those pennies.
I never out-grew the tendency towards contrariness and insatiable curiosity. From here I regard them as having been essential companions – both tools and fuel – on the rather erratic life path that unfolded for the ‘Tuppence’ character.
The days when I held court in my pram are ancient history, but the questions that matter for me remain fresh and alive. My responses to them are an ever-morphing ontology. Here’s the current version – a crone’s tuppence-worth.
Tuppence in her pram: Well then. What’s this all about?
What does the “God” word mean for you?
dressed up and dancing as the knowable.
Is Consciousness all there is?
I don’t know.
I can only say it’s all I ever experience.
But what knows the contents of Consciousness?
You’ll never find it.
(You’ll never escape it either.)
What is “enlightenment”?
An idea those who believe they are not already fully alight
like to entertain.
“Already fully alight” – how can one know that?
It can’t be known.
It’s quietly evident when all hunger for knowing drops away.
Can there be a partial or ‘damaging’ awakening?
Presence is already perfectly and completely just so.
But ideas about it can be experienced as wrong/bad/incomplete.
The sages say the observer is the observed. How is that so?
I’ve spent a lifetime on this koan…
I only ever experience all-inclusive observing.
Is there an Almighty God?
Too constricted and limited a notion, I’d say.
How about an Unlimited and Almighty Godding?
Is it true there’s “only One”?
From the perspective of Presence,
One is one too many.
Is there a purpose to life?
I ask Life. It grins:
Get onstage – it’s The Full Monty and you’re the star!
What is death?
That’s easy because I’ve been across and had a look.
It’s a little side-step, from one theatre into another.
Is it true that thoughts create reality?
Reality transcends thinking entirely.
However, thoughts and beliefs determine the quality of experience.
Is life a dream?
We’d know if we could find a dreamer.
What is surrender?
Abdication. Effortless, voluntary relinquishment
of the ME-project.
Is the world an illusion?
If it is
you’re the magician.
What’s the difference between illusion and delusion?
Illusion is the mirage in the desert;
delusion is believing it’s real.
Is there anything sacred?
could ever be sacred.
Is it true that “I am That?”
You are the glorious “am”.
Are there any true concepts?
I don’t know
Is there any valid aspiration / intention?
K I N D N E S S
What is freedom?
Being 100% present as the capacity for passionate engagement with life
and not minding what happens.
What brings your greatest fulfilment?
Nothing ever brings fulfilment.
It’s one’s natural state when there’s no need of fulfilment.
And your deepest peace?
S I L E N C E
Do you have any plans?
The GPS is set to nth – now! this! here!
Presence is driving.
What is Grace?
sneaking up for a kiss.
What are you?
I am whatever Presence wants to be
in response to whatever It meets.
[The words Awareness, Presence, the Unknowable, Reality, Grace, the Beloved, all point to the same ‘thing’. Except it’s not a thing. If anything (ha!) it’s an event-ing.
I like the Godding word; I might patent that one!]