‘I’ is the subject that cannot be objectified.
Each attempt to turn ‘I’ into an object for scrutiny or description
shows ‘I’ turning up again as subject regarding that object.
Talk about a slippery fish!
But ‘wee-me’ keeps on casting its net,
hoping to catch that fish,
hoping to dissect it,
label its parts,
write a learned paper about it,
teach the world how to catch it
transform and transcend it once and for all.
The big fishy I-eye just watches.
No comment. No preference. No change.
Image: Trigger Fish Eye, by Bill Atherton
Solving the ‘what am I?’ riddle is surprisingly simple really – you just keep on examining all the answers presented by the concept-weaving machine (imagination, thought) until you realize it’s impossible that you could be any one of them.
As long as they exist as objects to be considered, there has to be something – a subject – pondering them. Eventually you realize that however deep you go into this crazy-making Hall of Mirrors there is always an awareness of what is being pondered, and you notice that this awareness is a pure Subjectivity. It cannot be objectified. It cannot observe itself from any perspective whatsoever – just as your eye cannot see its iris.
You know it’s impossible for the ultimate version of ‘you’ to be anything other than that pure Subjectivity, which is pretty interesting because at the same time you know there’s no ‘you’ to know!
Put bluntly, if you say you know the answer you’re wrong. You can only be the answer.