Self-inquiry, for she-who scribbles, is pretty straight forward. There’s no agenda involved and conclusions are avoided. I simply sit (or whatever – it happens as often as remembering does) and watch the arising of thoughts. There’s now no inclination to consider that thoughts are ‘mine’ or that they have significance. Nevertheless they ebb and flow, as is their nature, and I’m curious by nature so I watch them like a researcher.
In my ‘thinking’ research, I find two distinct types of ‘knowing’ seem to occur. For ease of reference, and without being esoteric, I’ll call them alpha and omega.
So-called alpha thinking is linear (think alpha-bet/language) with all lines of thought moving out from and returning to me. The lines form ruts with habitual use, ruts of conditioned reflexes. My alpha thinking corresponds with intellect.
Omega ‘knowing’ is different and calling it thinking is inaccurate for it’s beyond language, beyond all that can be conceived. I’ll call it Omega-mind. It’s unconditioned, has no centre, is ubiquitous. It probably corresponds to impersonal intelligence.
When creative learning or action is occurring, omega-mind is in action, and when that learning needs to be recalled and written-up, alpha thinking comes into play.
Alpha thinking’s arena is the past and the future: it’s the inventor of the persona that plays in the field of time.
But omega-mind is always present as the background unknowable knowingness that alpha thinking arises within. There’s no persona involved, and time and space aren’t relevant. I wonder if my omega-mind might correspond to the original-mind of Zen?
this morning it’s so deliciously simple:
in the absence of a self-as-solid-state-entity
doing, needing, wanting, believing,
having, and all that stuff,
the intelligence that lives this body-brain
somehow looks after itself beautifully
it dictates the conditions
under which it will be healthy,
and prompts the necessary
adjustments in ‘lifestyle’
that intelligence is what I’ve come to call Grace
being in a state to ‘receive’ IT
is what I call meditation
pain, sinus, head-cold, cough, temperature, toothache, knee-collapse
body demands attention and is receiving it
there is no desire for any of this to be other-than-it-is:
just now, like this, right here.
and this is the peace that was hungered for, sought
in every hopeful thought
it’s a big say, but it can’t be denied:
hope is the enemy of peace
for hope-full thoughts abandon actuality
projecting an idea-l scenario and
sabotaging the movement of an
which knows without knowing
and acts beyond right or wrong
pain in gum: tooth trouble
pain in throat: head cold
how extraordinary to find
that pain and peace entwine!
when the response is relaxation
into whatever life presents,
when agony and angst are fully allowed,
pain simply does its physiological work;
and intelligence responds
That, which lives this body
and awares its pain and discomfort
knows no suffering
“Advaita adherents are mushrooming everywhere, because it is largely an intellectual philosophy that one can embrace without changing one’s life.”
(quote probably taken from internet … too long ago to remember)
understanding of the first word renders the remainder of the statement meaningless:
Advaita means non-duality
it contends that pure Awareness is all there is – a claim that’s easily verified for oneself
and once verified, one’s left in head-shaking bemusement –
where are all these ‘adherents’ to be found?
exactly who does all this ’embracing?’
and who could exist independently, to change ‘their’ life?
it might be more accurate to say that Advaita appeals to intelligence rather than the intellect
perhaps … but idle speculation nonetheless
what ‘appears’ to happen is that even one wideawake peek into the unarguable logic of non-duality changes everything
without ‘you’ doing diddlysquat
the intelligence of the spacious energy system called body-brain
is the unborn intelligence of Life;
it’s non-personal and unconditioned
intellect, however, is measurable, trainable and indispensable;
we need it to operate in the world: memory, habit, discernment …
and we like to think it’s ‘ours’
intellect has little to do with unborn intelligence
but it can spin concepts that might be useful pointers
towards that immeasurable, unknowable movement
(to what better purpose could an intellect be directed?)