Whatever you are drawn to do from a sense of inner compulsion, from a sense that may seem irrational or even foolhardy, is precisely what will take you towards the truth of yourself. It will be your unique version of ‘the finger pointing to the moon.’
The great Life lesson is always the same, always the apperception of what one actually is, via understanding of what one is not.
The events that unfold as you follow the compulsions may turn out to be fortuitous or they may seem to be awful mistakes. Very often regrets are involved. But don’t be fooled: disappointment is the greatest teacher of all.
My passion has always been to create. What creating taught me was that I-as-artist didn’t exist, which sounds devastating for the ego. And it was. But it simultaneously revealed the non-personal truth of the vastness and glory of the life I had, in ignorance, called ‘mine.’
Creativity, if it’s genuine, will always flow from the unknowable and the immeasurable. If I know what I’m doing I’m not engaged in creativity. I’m simply rearranging the known.