O is for
to the possibility that nothing
is the way it appears to be
thought’s dynamics, especially
the compilation of dear wee-me
identification with anything nameable
is suddenly … laughable
is the order of the day
nothing is special, only everything
no more arguments with whatever-ness
(my battle-bruises get a rest)
virtual or ‘real’ turn out to be
a mirror-image of ‘me’
O M G
this … this … this
is always IT
Image – probably the beautiful calligraphy of Thich Nhat Hanh – see comments.
Several highly respected books on ‘awakening’ advise that once the impossibility of a separate self-entity has been irrefutably seen, ‘identification’ needs to shift from that illusory person to the ‘watcher’ or ‘witness’, and that further along the path, this witness will dissolve into pure primordial Awareness – which is what One truly is.
I find this quite illogical. I just don’t get it, never did; I missed this step, totally.
Having met the impossibility of ‘my’ separate existence, the impossibility of an independent object called by my name here, there or anywhere, past present or future, just who would this person with ability to identify with anything BE?
Who could become the ‘watcher’ or ‘witness’ – or for that matter, emptiness?
Identification was suddenly as obsolete as the old ‘me’ and it took off – taking self and no-self with it – when it was clearly seen that wild wideawakeness is the only player in this game, and that that wideawakeness – aka natural, naked aware-ing – is none other than ‘I’.
The ‘I’ casts off the illusion of ‘I’
and yet remains as ‘I’,
such is the paradox of Self-realization.
~ Sri Ramana Maharshi
thoughts are ceaselessly arising:
the ones that get attention
w o w
Some speak of ‘my’ energy, of ‘their’ energy, of ‘others’ draining one’s energy – as in bad and good vibes… But where is this self that owns its ‘own’ energy? Exactly where are these other selves who can steal ‘my’ energy? Can life’s energy exist as an object to be manipulated or to be stolen? Scientists can measure energy in different forms, but can they hold it in their hands and view it with the naked eye?
What I’ve discovered these past months, in the company of a dear someone who constantly monitors ‘his’ energy and also informs me of the state of my own, is that the sensation of energy loss – or gain – in my body is caused by identification with said body, coupled with the belief that energy is finite and fixed. I question this popular paradigm that posits human beings as a collective of hungry vampire energy-suckers. As far as I’m concerned they’re sucking at the wrong source.
What if all those beliefs were untrue?
What if our ‘real’ energy was something utterly
and so unavoidable that you’d have to conclude
IT was your
own dear Self?
habit = conditioned, repeated, mechanical action
who has them?
no entity here to own anything
how can they be changed then, or controlled?
what to do?
The addictive notion of ‘me’ and ‘mine’ is the only habit that’s really interesting – and then only until it hits home that habits are nothing to do with what we actually are which is:
(which includes the whole kit and caboodle, even those pesky ‘bad’ habits!)
Look very closely and you’ll find
that the Knowingness of every experience, addictive or not
is never affected for an instant.
And astonishingly, a side-effect of that in-sight
is that the “conditioned, repeated, mechanical action”
one was identified with
ceases to be an issue.
So what’s the big deal about habits?
For new visitors to this blog, IT refers to that which cannot be named, but which we never tire of labeling: life, aliveness, god, spirit, awareness, beloved, divinity, noumenon and on and on . . .
it’s true that the word is not the thing
but words can be powerful pointers
it’s fun, and often revealing
to take them apart
and see what can be seen:
see Freud and co
(hang on by skin of)
contingent upon …
neurosis, source of suffering
(she can’t help it; she used to be a teacher)
all the body-brain conditioning
acquired over a lifetime remains
it’s a myth that it’s somehow all
wiped away with a whiff of awakening
what does go, is the reflexive ‘me’ mirage
that habitually identified with that conditioning
when conditioned responses to Life
Awareness lays them bare
some serve the survival needs of the organism;
these I associate with an intelligence
some serve the survival of the old illusory ‘self;’
these I associate with intellect
in its dualistic operation
so, what can be said about ‘right action?’
no action stands alone –
any action is an inevitable action
dependent upon and
the ceaseless activity
of non-personal, agenda-free
‘right action’ is just another concept