looking-without-labeling

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she who was depressed is nowhere to be found:
looking-without-labeling left only sensation devoid of
owner or sad-sack story

the sensation called “depression” spoke only of
the utter exhaustion of a brain and a body

with the absence of she who was depressed,
(hmmm … make that she who wanted to not be depressed)
it’s crystal clear that the body/brain just wants rest

it just wants story-free peace

it just wants to sink into this womb of gentle healing,
this fountainhead of sweet Grace:

now-and-this-and-here

exactly as-it-is!

~

self-satisfaction is unsatisfactory

02

self-satisfaction is unsatisfactory

my current state,
physical as well as mental,
is the natural outcome of my efforts
to satisfy my self

those efforts, encouraged by my
nearest and dearest, and fostered by
a culture of self-satisfaction
have driven me to distraction, to
discontent, and into depression

it ends
but not through any act of will

it ends because
some kind of intelligence sees
that to continue is wholly
illogical and unintelligent

how can a self that has never
had solid existence
ever be satisfied?

it ends of its own accord