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wideawakeness penetrates the dreamtime

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There were dreams last night.  They involved intense activity and the emotional involvement was amazing.  This is curious, for in the dream state called ‘daily life’ there is, for the most part, quiet emotional equanimity.

But clearly emotional reflexes are still intact and available in the brain, and there’s an ego construct that can ‘feel’ them to be real, even while the watching ‘I’ – the Knowingness of the dream – does nothing but be and see.

The impossibility of the separate existence of an entity that can own and suffer emotions penetrates even the night-time dream.

Wondering wonders if there will come a time when night-time dreams will disappear completely.

Strange, but ‘I’ doesn’t give a toss one way or the other.  Night-time dreams and the infinite versions of the daytime dream are all the same to this changeless ‘I’.

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an ecstasy of ease

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Awake on the dot of midnight with a wideawakeness in the brain that defies description.  The brain was empty of thought yet singing with energy.  Then I noticed the whole body was alive and singing with this energy and was completely at ease, although the night was hot, humid and airless.

Sitting through the night hours was an ecstasy of ease; I remember thinking at one point “I could do this forever, forever.”

Hours later, when the morning star was soaring in the eastern sky there was a perception of the world that was shocking in its luminosity and freshness and clarity.  “Oh my God!” I cried out loud, and that shocked me too somehow – the sharp clarity of my own voice.  I felt as though my hair was standing on end.

And then I noticed that for the first time in months the old aching exhaustion had left my body.

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